Is that an easy title to write? Hell NO it’s not! But, I sometimes am wondering why am I going slower then I want to. How am I not at the place I want to be or envision my self being in? And honestly I can only circle back to a one word answer…ME. I am holding myself back. I am stopping myself from being great at the ideas I have in mind, at the visions I have seen in my head but not in the present. Only I can blame myself.
It’s crazy to think that a new stay-at-home mom couldn’t figure it out fast right? How is it she has all this time and still isn’t making big moves? What is she doing? Why are things moving so slow. I don’t know what it’s like for every single stay-at-home momma, but for this momma, this new lifestyle, this new change during a pandemic and covid times has been super challenging (to say the least). It’s just not normal to feel like we all need to be careful when going out, places to go and things to do are completely limited, and everyone (well a lot of people) are on edge, have been scared into thinking we need to stay in a bubble. I have got to that point of wanting to just be in my own bubble that sometimes I don’t even know if I know how maneuver when I am outside my bubble. The sh*t is crazy!! Now, imagine all those thoughts for an over thinker and you will start to (hopefully) understand how a SAHM can cripple herself from being great and doing great things.
I have visions of things I want to get done, new endeavors I am working on and then I hit a road block. Sometimes it’s out of my control, but then there are other times, as I reflect now, I think that I am blocking myself from being great at accomplishing or completing the task. Or, the task gets completed but it’s just mediocre. I am NOT mediocre so why am I allowing this???
I can’t really put it all into words, I can only try to explain it from my own overthinking mindset. And now that I am writing that…I am thinking ahhh ha! The overthinking is also blocking my greatness! WTF! I know this, I get it…that doesn’t mean I want it. I know it’s naturally apart of my DNA. I am the over thinker. I will think things you have no idea I can make up in my own head. I can add to any situation and there not even be a situation. Mommas read that one again twice. I know that resonates with someone reading this. The goal is to get to the point of acknowledging when I am having a road block and making a plan to move past it, or adjust as it’s happening.
This post doesn’t give ways to be great, this is my random vent night while thinking about how I am evolving as a stay-at-home mom and as I go through the days how I can continue to encourage, push and guide myself to being great and having greatness in my visions. That isn’t to say I am trying to do it alone and that I don’t seek help or guidance from my spouse, I don’t ask other mommas their trials and tribulations and how they get through it, I do just that! I am soaking up everything I can to help me excel and demonstrate to our son that just because momma is at home, she can still be great too!
Share with me your thoughts on how you feel you are blocking your greatness, or if you felt you were and overcame it. I love all the feedback I get, the comments I receive and the support!
The Expressive Mom 